School started this past week...and once again I am in surprised that I am in my 2nd year of college..it is so crazy truely how time goes by.. it is crazy that 5 years ago Charlie was born.. and what is even more crazy is that this thursday I am turning 20...... me 20??? I never thought that the time would come.. where is this life I am living going?? what am I here called to do???? what is my purpose?? I dont know.... I wish that I could see a map of my life and know what was going to happen... what is even more amazing is that for 5 generations the women on my mom's side of the family for married and had children before their 20th birthday...... My grandma Ivy told me one thing that I will never forget "Lindsay, wait to get married it is not fun being married at 15 watching everyone else going off to school, when I was there with my daughter and pregnant with my son, if there is anything for you I ask you to wait"... from that moment at the age of 13 I promised my G.G that I would wait.. wait to get marriend to live the life that she didnt get to live. to be young and travel, and most of all to get a higher Educaton... I am not saying that for 5 generations they did not grow up to amazing Women because My GG, grandma samp and my mom were/are amazing women of God... and I see how God worked in their lifes.. and to be honest I am Glad my mom had me!!!! I am Glad how God has worked in my familys life.... I am Glad that my G.G told me that...because it really showed me to WAIT and to not rush....... to simply live life a little.... to explore.......and to seek God with all my heart and soul.... My G.G left one thing to me when she died and it was nothing that I can hold on to physically but it was those words that have allowed me to look beyond getting married anytime soon and to live life..... to be able to go and get an education is not alway easy and I would rather do everything but my homework but I need to remind myself that I am trying to reach for the stars and with every page I read for school I am getting close to that one star of getting my degee in Social work..who knows what id going to happen five years.... who knows?? I dont...all I need to do is wait.....be patient.... and seek after God with all that I have......

WOW!! I can’t believe that this summer has gone by so fast!! What as life changing summer…summer camp changed my life this year what has it taught me? I don’t know I feel like such a stronger person, someone who is going to stand up for what she believes in. I feel like God is shaping my life..Showing me how to be brave and to really take a stand for my faith……. Summer camp was a place where my love for ministries really grew again..I desire to serve God with all that I have it is not always easy but when you give him your all he uses you, I desire to be used by the holy on! When summer camp was over I went to Florida for a week to surprise my aunt for her Birthday. it was so much fun I was dreading going cause I honestly have a hard time being around that side of the family because of the past, and sometimes it is hard to forget what happened. But I went and stood up for what I believed in. the most beautiful part of Florida was when we went to the beach..it was SOO amazing…….

You know it is crazy I am turning 20 soon, that is sooo stinking crazy I honestly cannot believe it. That I am going to be 20..I am getting old..and I am going to be a sophomore in college….time goes by so fast…