I am at peace....for once in my life I know that God is in control.....yes everything around me is not okay....my Dad is sick, my Foster brother got really sick over the weekends and didn't get to come home, all the people around me that I shared so much with are gone and I never see them, I am starting my new Job, I keep falling in love with these foster kids and then they leave or the state of Washington just plain stinks and makes wrong decision's.....my friends around me are not always making the wisest choice............and I did 100% better in spring quarter of college........this is my life...crazy never resting....but I like it....I like being able to be at peace with all of it..and knowing that I don't have to worry....and give it to God to take care of!!!! it is so relieving..this I have felt such peace and patients in my heart...and I know it is God showing his love for me...I like when I got into a relationship 2 years ago my whole relationship with God has been on a rollarcoaster ride...for once it is getting better...I am getting visions and dreams that I know are from God..... and it feels so relieving to be real with God and to be vulnerable to him once again..... I don't ever want to go back...to how I was....I want to keep this peace.....

so tomorrow we are setting up for camp!! I am excited to be part of a pioneering camp..it is the first of many to come.....but I am scared of being a leader and scared of failing my kids........but "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Philippians 4:13............I pray that God can be in the camp this week and to give me all that I need so I can pour myself into my kids..and totally just LOVE on them............