I want to be made new

This weekend has been one of the most challenging and hard weekends in a long time..it has been a very testing and I am fully beginning to understand what it means to FULLY rely on God...

The doctor himself said that the line they got in Anthony was a miracle and I truly believe that my God is still living and active performing miracles 2010 years later as he did a long time ago!! I am truly AMAZED I cannot help but lift my hands in praise Jesus!!

I am not saying that this has been easy it has been fully relying on God in a time where we had no idea what was going to happen to him.. I do not think that I have cried to hard in a LONG time...

Lately it feels as though God has called me to grow closer to him I have often found tine in my busy schedule to take time for Jesus and have a time where I am praying and getting into the word. It feels so good to feel close to Jesus and to fully rely on him, I don't know how I am awake and running around joyful but I believe that Jesus is giving me an unspeakable joy that is making me strong and carrying me through a time where I should not be joyful but I am...

Today was a BIG day for me! when I was 13 I was baptized and I feel as though I understood what I was doing back them but I did not do the full water Emerson and I have felt as though God was telling me that I needed to do it. after a long week of not sleeping and feeling as though I was Jacob wrestling with God, I contacted my pastor. So today I got baptized and let me tell it feels great to listen and obey Jesus, it is so amazing!! When the pastor asked me what I was doing I said "Yes, I did the first time but I need to do it right". It was a powerful experience and tonight I feel at peace in knowing that I have made that proclaiming in front of my church family.

The LORD is my strength and my shield;
my heart trusts in him, and I am helped.
My heart leaps for joy
and I will give thanks to him in song.
Psalm 28:7