It has been a weird stage being 21
It's a time of change
It's a time where I am at that point in my life where I am almost done with college
It is a transitional time
it's a time where I am beginning to see myself done with the University and I see the next step in my life starting to come into action...
it is a time a renewal
it is a Time where I am starting to look forward to the next steps in life that God has for me, It has been a time of discovering and falling more in love with the savior who died on the cross, it has been a time of giving myself in full service and submission to the savior who created this earth..NO it has not been easy it has been hard having faith and fully trusting God with everything going on...
This time has been a time of visions and dreams that can only come a loving savior...
The most interesting part of being 21 is that I have had this REALLY strong desire to get married.. but not only to be married but I am beginning to look forward to the relationship with that Godly man God has for me...God has begun to reveal to me what it is to be a wife and what that looks like within marriage... It is scary and exciting at the same time..I have been spending alot of time in prayer about this subject just praying for me and whomever this man is...
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Sunday, May 16, 2010
I want to be made new
This weekend has been one of the most challenging and hard weekends in a long time..it has been a very testing and I am fully beginning to understand what it means to FULLY rely on God...
The doctor himself said that the line they got in Anthony was a miracle and I truly believe that my God is still living and active performing miracles 2010 years later as he did a long time ago!! I am truly AMAZED I cannot help but lift my hands in praise Jesus!!
I am not saying that this has been easy it has been fully relying on God in a time where we had no idea what was going to happen to him.. I do not think that I have cried to hard in a LONG time...
Lately it feels as though God has called me to grow closer to him I have often found tine in my busy schedule to take time for Jesus and have a time where I am praying and getting into the word. It feels so good to feel close to Jesus and to fully rely on him, I don't know how I am awake and running around joyful but I believe that Jesus is giving me an unspeakable joy that is making me strong and carrying me through a time where I should not be joyful but I am...
Today was a BIG day for me! when I was 13 I was baptized and I feel as though I understood what I was doing back them but I did not do the full water Emerson and I have felt as though God was telling me that I needed to do it. after a long week of not sleeping and feeling as though I was Jacob wrestling with God, I contacted my pastor. So today I got baptized and let me tell it feels great to listen and obey Jesus, it is so amazing!! When the pastor asked me what I was doing I said "Yes, I did the first time but I need to do it right". It was a powerful experience and tonight I feel at peace in knowing that I have made that proclaiming in front of my church family.
The LORD is my strength and my shield;
my heart trusts in him, and I am helped.
My heart leaps for joy
and I will give thanks to him in song.
Psalm 28:7
The doctor himself said that the line they got in Anthony was a miracle and I truly believe that my God is still living and active performing miracles 2010 years later as he did a long time ago!! I am truly AMAZED I cannot help but lift my hands in praise Jesus!!
I am not saying that this has been easy it has been fully relying on God in a time where we had no idea what was going to happen to him.. I do not think that I have cried to hard in a LONG time...
Lately it feels as though God has called me to grow closer to him I have often found tine in my busy schedule to take time for Jesus and have a time where I am praying and getting into the word. It feels so good to feel close to Jesus and to fully rely on him, I don't know how I am awake and running around joyful but I believe that Jesus is giving me an unspeakable joy that is making me strong and carrying me through a time where I should not be joyful but I am...
Today was a BIG day for me! when I was 13 I was baptized and I feel as though I understood what I was doing back them but I did not do the full water Emerson and I have felt as though God was telling me that I needed to do it. after a long week of not sleeping and feeling as though I was Jacob wrestling with God, I contacted my pastor. So today I got baptized and let me tell it feels great to listen and obey Jesus, it is so amazing!! When the pastor asked me what I was doing I said "Yes, I did the first time but I need to do it right". It was a powerful experience and tonight I feel at peace in knowing that I have made that proclaiming in front of my church family.
The LORD is my strength and my shield;
my heart trusts in him, and I am helped.
My heart leaps for joy
and I will give thanks to him in song.
Psalm 28:7
Saturday, May 15, 2010
wow..
I am at a lost for words...
somehow the doctors were able to get the Hickman line in that he needs in order to get the nutrition neccisary to get healthy...
it was coming down to if the doctors could not get this line in then we had no idea what was going to happen with sweet Anthony...
for the past two months the surgeons could not get this line in...
for for some reason God worked a mighty miracle because tonight....
Anthony has a central line that he needs right now...
somehow the doctors were able to get the Hickman line in that he needs in order to get the nutrition neccisary to get healthy...
it was coming down to if the doctors could not get this line in then we had no idea what was going to happen with sweet Anthony...
for the past two months the surgeons could not get this line in...
for for some reason God worked a mighty miracle because tonight....
Anthony has a central line that he needs right now...
2 months
It has been two months since Anthony went into the hospital...I would be lying if I said that I was not angry, mad, upset, lost for words, and just trying to make it through this time...it is ROUGH for sure..
he is one sick baby and to be honest he has not gotten any better in those two months, only worst...Today he is going into surgery to (HOPEFULLY) get a Hickman line in..it is REALLY crucial that he gets this line in not only for his health but he is in pain from being poked... THe surgeons have tried to get one in two other times before... hopefully the third times the charm!
It seems as if he starts to get better than he gets sick with something else, it is a really frustrating and daunting time.. My parents are TIRED and Weary of not being together and not knowing what is going on with their son.
Tonight or this morning I came home from ministry and I tried to sleep but I couldn't because I believe for the first time in two months it hit me what was going on. I was a mess trying to be fully present in the ministry while worrying and praying for my brother's current state of health...
Please pray for Sweet Anthony..
he is one sick baby and to be honest he has not gotten any better in those two months, only worst...Today he is going into surgery to (HOPEFULLY) get a Hickman line in..it is REALLY crucial that he gets this line in not only for his health but he is in pain from being poked... THe surgeons have tried to get one in two other times before... hopefully the third times the charm!
It seems as if he starts to get better than he gets sick with something else, it is a really frustrating and daunting time.. My parents are TIRED and Weary of not being together and not knowing what is going on with their son.
Tonight or this morning I came home from ministry and I tried to sleep but I couldn't because I believe for the first time in two months it hit me what was going on. I was a mess trying to be fully present in the ministry while worrying and praying for my brother's current state of health...
Please pray for Sweet Anthony..
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