I don't even know what to say..my head is spinning and spinning..I am going on purely adrenaline right now...Anthony is not doing well by any means...
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/anthonycox1/journal
that is probably the best way to keep up with whats going on with sweet Anthony..
It is a hard time right now and I know God will and is being glorified through Anthony's life I still pray and hope for that miracle to happen...
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Dear Anthony,
I cannot believe it Anthony!! It has been two years since you have changed not only my life but mommy and daddy's too!! It still amazes me how strong you are! although you have been in the hospital for three months now, I know you are fighting and wanting to get out. I pray for you often Anthony although I am not able to always come up because of school and helping with Charlie and Mr, Feisty, there is not a moment that I am not thinking and praying for you! you are constantly on my mind. Anthony I pray that you continue to be strong. and get the rest you need. I Pray that the Doctors will find out what is going on with your little body and that Jesus can continue to heal your body. Baby brother you have come to far to not fight for your life. I think of the little four month old we saw two years ago and to see the sweet two year old and I know that God has performed a miracle! A miracle that is beyond our understanding.
Keep fighting sweet baby! Little Anthony you need to stop bashing and banging your head, it is not okay (Elmo would not be happy with you). I pray as you have surgery in the morning that we could receive good news and find out what is happening with your blood flow.. Anthony I cannot imagine life without you and I don't want to..May Jesus heal and protect your little body..
I love you sweet boy
<3
Sissy
Keep fighting sweet baby! Little Anthony you need to stop bashing and banging your head, it is not okay (Elmo would not be happy with you). I pray as you have surgery in the morning that we could receive good news and find out what is happening with your blood flow.. Anthony I cannot imagine life without you and I don't want to..May Jesus heal and protect your little body..
I love you sweet boy
<3
Sissy
Friday, June 18, 2010
"She's in the van"
two years ago our sweet "N" left my parents care, I still pray and wonder how she is doing!! It was nearly two weeks ago I was down in the laundry room and I looked up and saw her baby blanket..I was thinking to myself " I wonder how that sweet baby is doing?" and prayed for her...
well Today I was sitting on the couch checking my facebook and I saw a van pull up and a older man came to my front door speaking in broken English and he said her name and I looked out and saw sweet "N" standing in the passenger seat of the van and so I went outside, crying by this time because I realized what was going on..... After two years I was finally holding one of the sweetest girls..I told her that I loved her even though she did not remember me... and kissed her sweet hand...oh and the amazing thing is after she finally warmed up I started to play and tickle her. Her laugh and smile is just the same... She is one happy girl!!
It is hard to explain but once you have a foster placement in your home and they are there for a long term, the attaching and bonding happens. no matter how many children we have in our home. my family has chosen to love the child just as if they were our own children... well that leads us to fall in love with these children and when they leave they take a piece of our hearts with them that can never be returned. The love I had for N is still there two years later, I cannot help but remember, the four month old baby girl who came to our home to die and to three years later see her full of life, I cant help but cry tears of joy for this sweet girl..Her grandparents are the sweetest! I love how they speak Spanish to me, good thing I took Spanish in high school and collage!! it has paid off that's for sure... ha
well Today I was sitting on the couch checking my facebook and I saw a van pull up and a older man came to my front door speaking in broken English and he said her name and I looked out and saw sweet "N" standing in the passenger seat of the van and so I went outside, crying by this time because I realized what was going on..... After two years I was finally holding one of the sweetest girls..I told her that I loved her even though she did not remember me... and kissed her sweet hand...oh and the amazing thing is after she finally warmed up I started to play and tickle her. Her laugh and smile is just the same... She is one happy girl!!
It is hard to explain but once you have a foster placement in your home and they are there for a long term, the attaching and bonding happens. no matter how many children we have in our home. my family has chosen to love the child just as if they were our own children... well that leads us to fall in love with these children and when they leave they take a piece of our hearts with them that can never be returned. The love I had for N is still there two years later, I cannot help but remember, the four month old baby girl who came to our home to die and to three years later see her full of life, I cant help but cry tears of joy for this sweet girl..Her grandparents are the sweetest! I love how they speak Spanish to me, good thing I took Spanish in high school and collage!! it has paid off that's for sure... ha
Thursday, June 10, 2010
finally
Today the Adoption social worker called...
We are getting closer to the finalization of Mr, Feisty!!!
:)
it has been a long two years but I cannot wait until he is ours forever and ever!!
We are getting closer to the finalization of Mr, Feisty!!!
:)
it has been a long two years but I cannot wait until he is ours forever and ever!!
Saturday, June 05, 2010
in 9 months...
I will be having a baby...
Just kidding actually in nine months it will mark one of the biggest accomplishments in my life thus far. These past 3 years of attending the University of Washington have not come easy and no education should, but seriously my life seems as though it only gets more complicated and honestly hard. these past 3 years not only me but my family have been tested and tried, time and time again. often I feel as though I can't give my best to my school and be the college student that I want to be, but I have recently realized that I am learning lots and this learning is changing me and making me into the person God has called me to be. I am so thankful for the opportunity to attend the UW!! It is an amazing school and not to mention the best public University west of the Mississippi, not to brag but seriously I can be a little bit proud... :)
It will be in nine months that I will be done with my Undergraduate degree!!!! and honestly it is crazy how fast my time at the UW has gone. I remember going to my adviser's office and the first thing she said was "Lindsay, make sure you take advantage and enjoy college because it goes by so fast, before you know it you will be graduation" and let me tell you she was right. At the time I laughed but I now realized that she was so right.
Oh how I cannot wait to be done and move on with life.... I am almost done with spring quarter 2010 and it has been a rough and busy quarter. with Anthony in the hospital for the past 10 weeks and now he is he really sick in the NICU it has not been easy to keep up but for some reason I have a peace and know that everything will be all right with not only my grades but with Sweet Anthony... Then I am starting summer quarter in the middle of June. although it is a crazy time I have a peace and know that God will not give me more than I can handle.. with that I know everything will be alright!
Lindsay
Just kidding actually in nine months it will mark one of the biggest accomplishments in my life thus far. These past 3 years of attending the University of Washington have not come easy and no education should, but seriously my life seems as though it only gets more complicated and honestly hard. these past 3 years not only me but my family have been tested and tried, time and time again. often I feel as though I can't give my best to my school and be the college student that I want to be, but I have recently realized that I am learning lots and this learning is changing me and making me into the person God has called me to be. I am so thankful for the opportunity to attend the UW!! It is an amazing school and not to mention the best public University west of the Mississippi, not to brag but seriously I can be a little bit proud... :)
It will be in nine months that I will be done with my Undergraduate degree!!!! and honestly it is crazy how fast my time at the UW has gone. I remember going to my adviser's office and the first thing she said was "Lindsay, make sure you take advantage and enjoy college because it goes by so fast, before you know it you will be graduation" and let me tell you she was right. At the time I laughed but I now realized that she was so right.
Oh how I cannot wait to be done and move on with life.... I am almost done with spring quarter 2010 and it has been a rough and busy quarter. with Anthony in the hospital for the past 10 weeks and now he is he really sick in the NICU it has not been easy to keep up but for some reason I have a peace and know that everything will be all right with not only my grades but with Sweet Anthony... Then I am starting summer quarter in the middle of June. although it is a crazy time I have a peace and know that God will not give me more than I can handle.. with that I know everything will be alright!
Lindsay
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