I am tired..and I am so loving my classes..but I need to sleep God!! I need to feel passion for serving you.I need to find new life... Oh God renew me and refresh me to the goodness of your will...there are so many people who need you......I am not perfect..I fail constantly, I get side tracked, get tempted but through it all I know you are there loving and protecting me...





"Even the best fall down sometimes Even the stars refuse to shine Out of the back you fall in time I somehow find You and I collide"
Howie Day

This song is AMAZING..and it is how I feel....and I know God is there..no matter what I am going thru........just listen to it..it is so AMAZING!

New time in life...that is where I am at..Growing up.......I am leaving my childish ways...and I am learning to love myself so that I can love others better...........my parents are leaving in 13 months to move away to canada if god permits it.........and I am scared..but I am also okay with it.........I know it is where they are being called..but yet I am going to miss them.........I feel like I am in the middle but I have to let go of my whole life.....it is hard.........next year I am moving home to spend all the time I can with them and learn from them.....I still learn from them.....I am sad to not watch Charlie grow up and be there for it all...but somehow I am okay with that.....okay with letting them go........but it is hard......... I am doing alot better this quarter... I quit my job...it was an interesting house to work for..but I feel so free..and that I can fully focus on my studys and have more time to be with people, which is what I missed out on last quarter... Oh am I ever so excited for this summer... I am going to be on break and hopefully working for the church as a counselor...it was the easiest job because I just told pastor that I wanted the job and wanted to help out..and he said ok!! I love it..and I know I have God favor in all this..do I know what is going to happen in my future?? NO! I dont....I am just living day to day......and wanted to have more of CHRIST in my life...so that I can show others him thru my everyday actions.......honestly I cant wait to see what happens.......to see how it all plays out...but for now......I just live and breath my school text books!!!! just to say about $450 dollars to be exact.....