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what to do? I feel like constantly my life is full of conflict. I feel like with every decision I have had to sacrifice and face walls of many kinds. I Feel like often I have to choose one path and stick to it, I can't do everything I love and want to do.... Some difficult decisions need to made but I am not going to move on without a fight.

Sometimes speaking out about what you believe and see is a hard place to be, when you don't agree with the leadership you are under there comes a time when you need to speak up and bring to light the truth, although they may not see it, at least it is being brought to light... I am tied of have to constantly sacrifice, what I love to do and the passion that God has given me, in order to just be able to serve the people you want to serve.....

Thats right..I am possibly going to leave LNO and move on... This is a REALLY hard decision and much prayer is going to be made because right not nothing is going to change...so most likely I am going to try and meet with the executive director of the organization and possibly write a letter to the board of directors, so they know whats going on and can see why there is a high turn overate with volunteers... Someone had told me that they have prayed boldness over me, all of a sudden boldness has overtaken my soul and my passion for serving the girls has been reignited, it is not the only ministry that serves the girls, there are many other and I believe that with time God will show me the place that I need to go to....

Today I read my E-mail and this was the bible verse I read:


"You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives."
-Genesis 50:20 NIV

This verse has been with me all day as I have faced mountains and had dreams shot down, but then I know God has a plan for all of this.