update!

like always life is crazy! Like always life is moving forward and keeping me on my toes wanting to know what is next! Like always God is good and is continuing to work and mold me. When I started graduate school I did not know how hard it was going to be, I had no idea what I was getting myself into! all I knew was that God was calling me to go. The past two semesters have flown by! and I am amazed at my ability to succeed in graduate school! I am shocked that for four years I went to UW and got the okay grades I got and now I have straight a's two semesters in a row! it has not been easy but as a person I know I have grown and changed so much! it is scary to think that in a few short months I will be in my internship site! I am praying and trusting that God will use me and allow me to become the counselor that he desires for me to be! He has brought me this far, he wont let me go now!

Rummer has it..

wow...that is the only title I can think of! but totally fitting! I have been MIA!!! Graduate school has taken over my life...between reading books, finding volunteer jobs, working on papers, group projects, driving 40 miles back and fourth, landing an internship, and trying to breath!! Life has been insane!!! I am officially done with 5 classes! and I have one more final left! yikes! I will catch up hopefully soon!

Everyday...

Everyday I think of my brother Anthony.
Everyday I am reminded that he is not here
Everyday I feel the memory's and precious moments that we had together slip from my memory
Everyday I think of my brother Anthony
Everyday I hear people tell me and my family to get over it
Everyday I wish that I could go back in time, just so I could spent one more moment, one more second with Anthony
Everyday I think of my Brother Anthony, not a day has gone by the past 15 months that I have not thought about him

I sometimes find videos on my phone that show a glimpse into a moment with Anthony, its all I have of Anthony left...I get to hear his voice and remember that he was alive...It is also a reminder that a piece of my heart is missing..

The videos show me at a time when my heart was whole. Until I see Anthony again my heart will never be healed.. Everyday that I am alive I may be reminded of my Brother, Everyday it is a process of knowing that he is okay....



Anthony I miss you so much sweet boy...