Its to late to Apologize, this song has been stuck in my head all week.. listening to to probably 50 times in the past 2 days.. not even kidding.. I kept pressing replay, as I was studying for finals..
it is a deep song.. I think why is hits suck a chord with me is that in so many ways, this year has been a year of loss and letting go of people in my life... so much drama and words that were spoken that in the end caused a friendship to end... the chords were cut.. the deed has been done.. no matter what is said or done.. I feel like at this point that it is to late to apologise.. we are all hurt in the situation.. I wont go into details much.. but I found out more information of what happened when the whole situation happened 5 months ago... and it hurts it stings...it has caused me to not talk to and loose friends over a situation that got way to out of hand.. sometimes it feels like it is to late to apologise... I feel like I have said sorry for my part and I did... but the other person hasn't.. it feels like it is always "My fault" in the situation that occurred.. I know that it is not only my fault.. at this point I feel so hurt that no matter if that person did apologise I couldn't forget them.... its to late...
but then I remember that no matter what I do as a person, when I kneel before the king of kings he forgives my sins..
in fact, Matthew chapter 6:14-15 states
"For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses."
Matt 6:14-15 (ESV)
but in order for Jesus to forgive me of my sins I must forgive the sins of my trespasser.. and you know how hard that is sometimes, to deny my human flesh... and forgive someone knowing that for some reason they don't forgive me.. but then I remember I do not need to worry about my enemy in fact I should pray for those who persecute me..
In Matthew chapter 5:44-48
But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet only your brothers, what more are you doing than others? Do not even the Gentiles do the same? You therefore must be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Matt 5:44-48 (ESV)
This verse reminds me that I need to pray for those who persecute me, but what is even more powerful is when Jesus asked, If you love those who love you, what reward do you have? but do we gain from loving the people that are so easy to love and get along.. I thing of so many times where I as a human would rather love on the people that honestly I love the most... but what is hard is when those people become the people who persecute you... in Hebrews the writer writes about how this life is not going to be easy.. we are going to go through trials and tribulations.. we as Christians as we stand up for our faith... and beliefs will be persecuted..even by believers... but as a growing Christian I must and know that I need to forgive those people that have hurt me so deeply.. and I pray that I can and will..because in order for God to forgive me, I must forgive those who I need to still forgive..
This post is really random..but I have been thinking A LOT... I will have more post throughout the week and most likely the next month.because I will have a lot more free time to post.. ..
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
Lamentations 3:22-23 (ESV)
it is a deep song.. I think why is hits suck a chord with me is that in so many ways, this year has been a year of loss and letting go of people in my life... so much drama and words that were spoken that in the end caused a friendship to end... the chords were cut.. the deed has been done.. no matter what is said or done.. I feel like at this point that it is to late to apologise.. we are all hurt in the situation.. I wont go into details much.. but I found out more information of what happened when the whole situation happened 5 months ago... and it hurts it stings...it has caused me to not talk to and loose friends over a situation that got way to out of hand.. sometimes it feels like it is to late to apologise... I feel like I have said sorry for my part and I did... but the other person hasn't.. it feels like it is always "My fault" in the situation that occurred.. I know that it is not only my fault.. at this point I feel so hurt that no matter if that person did apologise I couldn't forget them.... its to late...
but then I remember that no matter what I do as a person, when I kneel before the king of kings he forgives my sins..
in fact, Matthew chapter 6:14-15 states
"For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you, but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses."
Matt 6:14-15 (ESV)
but in order for Jesus to forgive me of my sins I must forgive the sins of my trespasser.. and you know how hard that is sometimes, to deny my human flesh... and forgive someone knowing that for some reason they don't forgive me.. but then I remember I do not need to worry about my enemy in fact I should pray for those who persecute me..
In Matthew chapter 5:44-48
But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet only your brothers, what more are you doing than others? Do not even the Gentiles do the same? You therefore must be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Matt 5:44-48 (ESV)
This verse reminds me that I need to pray for those who persecute me, but what is even more powerful is when Jesus asked, If you love those who love you, what reward do you have? but do we gain from loving the people that are so easy to love and get along.. I thing of so many times where I as a human would rather love on the people that honestly I love the most... but what is hard is when those people become the people who persecute you... in Hebrews the writer writes about how this life is not going to be easy.. we are going to go through trials and tribulations.. we as Christians as we stand up for our faith... and beliefs will be persecuted..even by believers... but as a growing Christian I must and know that I need to forgive those people that have hurt me so deeply.. and I pray that I can and will..because in order for God to forgive me, I must forgive those who I need to still forgive..
This post is really random..but I have been thinking A LOT... I will have more post throughout the week and most likely the next month.because I will have a lot more free time to post.. ..
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
his mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
Lamentations 3:22-23 (ESV)
Tonight I sing a new song, it is not to late to apologize and to forgive..
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